Mommy without Clint - The Next Season of My Life

I thank those of you who shared Clint's "final journey" with us. I hope you found inspiration and encouragement as we shared the good and bad moments over the last months until Clint found his way home to Jesus on December 3, 2004. As we journey through the next season of our lives, perhaps something I share here will help others who are also making this painful journey. If you have not "met" Clint before, please visit his Online Journal where I told some of his life's story in words and pictures. – Mommy (aka Carol)

You were loved by someone,
Touched by someone,
Held by someone,
Meant something to someone,
Loved somebody,
Touched somebody's heart along the way.
You can look back and say,
You were loved.
-----Diane Warren

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Krishna: Hi, blog hoping

shierylssi: hi, dropping by here.hope we can xchange links.thank you

Blake: Just blog hopping.... I look forward to the new journey!

Garf: hi there

Sally Ferguson: Wishing you blessings at Easter!

Storm: It is so good to be able to read your blog again, just returned from Africa. Come by and check out my site ...

Sally Ferguson: Happy Valentine's Day!

Heart: happy valentines day

Keeper: Stopped by to say Good Morning, and to wish you a happy day :)

Fran: Nice site.I enjoyed my visit

Keeper: Thanks Carol, I have added your link as well, have a great day!

Keeper: Enjoyed your journal.... Care to exchange links

mandi791: Very nice journal :)

Parisukat: hello there! Cool blog you got here! Hope we could become blogfriends. I added you to my list hope you could add me too. Have a good day!

Garf: just visiting your page

Garf: add u now

Garf: care to exchange link?

Rev. Handy: Just passing by to say hello and God Bless...

Kim: Hi, was just surfing through blogs. Your blogs are absolutely amazing and inspirational.

Joanne Troppello: Hi. Just blog hopping. I like your blog site. God bless, Joanne

june: Hello, Your journal is inspirational and i am glad i found it.sending hugs June x

sparkle: Today I am visiting the neighborhood and dropping off warm wishes to say have an awesome moment and week ahead and to remember you are special and important person to this world

naturalskeptic: just one more quick tag to let you know that i read your sons webpage and my heart and prayers go out to you and your family!

naturalskeptic: i tried to leave a comment and this is my 3rd attempt at leaving a tag so we'll see! have a good day!

Lutchi : nice blog you got here...Visit me at my blog when u have time. TC

Sevy: Hi Carol ---------------------------------- Have a super day !!

corina: thanks for stopping by. If I were "hanging" in there anymore - I'd be a monkey!

God Bless~

corina: I hope 2007 be's much kinder to you...May it be a year of blessing for you.

Brandon Doyle: Just out blog surfing. :)

sparkle: I am around the neighbourhood today with new years wishes as I travel bravejournal today so am Wishing you and yours wisdom and all greatest 2007 and beyond

Carol: I really enjoyed your site and thoughtful entries. May God bless you this New Year and beyond.

Angel: Happy New Year to you and yours!

Angel: Stopping in to wish you and yours a very Merry Christmas, Carol! I sure hope your power is on again soon. I've been following the news of the situation. Take care and God bless you, my friend.

Angel: Happy Thanksgiving, Carol!! I love Extreme Makeover Home Edition and I usually boo-hoo through everyone of them!

diane: What a touching blog. I am sorry for your loss, hope Bill feels better soon.

sparkle: have a blessed weekend

Meagan: I hope you had a good weekend!

Vivian: Hello again. Hope you had a nice Monday!

Vivian: I love the centerpiece. Nice work!! stopped over to say hello...

Meagan: I came across your journal, so I thought I'd stop to say hello. You have a beautiful place here. I hope you have a great week.

Cheryl: WOW, Hawaii would be nice. Haven't ever been there yet. Have fun.

corina: hi...It's been ages since I dropped by. Just checkin' in to see how u r doing. Anyway, Have a great week. God Bless!

Josh Nay (Jay Roberts): Well that's great. Let me know how that goes or if you need help or something.

Josh Nay (Jay Roberts): Ugh! Just had my tag board spammed! Well, I was really touched by your journal. Here's a tag of friendship for you!

Melody: hi there. i enjoyed reading your journal. hope you have a nice day!

beth: hey i left you a comment and signd your beautifull sons guest book. i was deeply touched by it.

RAINBOW: Just had my tagboard spammed...and had a bad restaurant experience. Other than that, things are going well!

Angie: Hi, just blog hopping, thought I'd stop by and say HELLO. Hope you're having a good day ~ Love Angie

Barb: Just stopping by to wish you a Blessed Easter.

sis: Hello, just read Clint's journal. It's a nice memorial. I have a memorial journal for my brother. He was killed in a car wreck on 5/1/05. He was 34. I pasted a poem from Clint's journal into mine. Thanks.

Angie: Hi Carol, thanks for your visit and tag, hope you're having a good day ~Angie~

Angie: What a beautiful journal you have here, I'll be back for sure. Hope your week is a good one ~ Angie ~

juicenjack: Hello was hopping around and stumbled on to here. Enjoyed reading your and Clint's journal. I babysat and worked with kids and adults that had similar problems to Clint. God Bless and hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Storm: just dropping by to check on you. Finally have a new computer so I can cyberhop better

Angel: Happy Valentine's Day, Carol!!

Marie Elliott: Sending love your way,

Tinya:

Storm:

Hi Diane. Was finally able to get out cyberwalking again and wanted to check on you and see what you were up to ...

Nathalie: Bouncin around figured I'd drop in and say Hello...Hope you had a GRRRREAT Weekend!

Angel: HAPPY NEW YEAR, CAROL!!

Barb: Carol, just stopping by to wish you a Merry Christmas. Thoughts of our loved will hopefully be with us and comfort us at this time. Take care.

GirlyGurl: Hey there, just here checking out your journal. Have a nice day!

Storm:

Hi Carol, I get a "lump in my chest" reading your thoughts that you share .. thanks for reminding us how life is a

Angel: I was posting an entry at the time you came over to my journal. Please take a second look...

Angel: No entry for today...As if I really expected there to be. Just want to let you know, Carol, that I've thought about you and about Clint today. A year ago - yes, the time has seemed to have flown by. You were (are!) a special mother and Clint, of course, was special, as well. God's special gift to all of us. You're in my prayers today.

inhishands: God bless you in all that you do! Grace and love be with you always! (God Is Love)

Angel: I haven't been here in a while - life gets in the way... But when I am here, I read and read and absolutely love viewing the pictures you put up! I wish I had known Clint personally, yet I feel a special closeness with him and with you through your journal. Thank you for giving so many the opportunity to come to know Clint as you did!

sara: Hi there :)

Storm: Thank you so much for sharing your love and pain of your journey

CyberMagic: Just blog hopping .

dee: I just surfed in. I read Clint's journal. I'm just heartsick. My thoughts and prayers are with you, I can not imagine the loss you & your family must feel.I wish for you a pleasant happy weekend!

Christina: Love and blessings to one from one mother to another...

~ Christina

Eric: Hi there, just stop by to say hello & hope this find u doing well here!

Tonya: I went and read Clints Story and It just broke my heart. I missed out on knowing Clint but received a blessing just reading the story. Thank you for sharing. God Bless you and your family. I will be praying for you all.

Aloha-GA-Girl: I was out blog hopping and came across yours. You have a wonderful story of love and survival. May God continue to Bless You.

Jackee: What a beautiful story...anyone you meet will be so blessed Carol! I lift you up in my thoughts and prayers!!!!

Ryan: Hey nice journal. Keep up the hard work!! If you have time check out my journal!! and have a Great Day!!!

Angel: Prayers are said every day for you, Carol! You are loved.

Kris S: Thanks so much for stopping by, Carol. The thing about grief, people will tell you it's time for you to put it behind you but it's such a personal thing, isn't it? We all take our own time in our own way to heal. Bless you, sweetie.

Leenie: Hi...I haven't been in awhile but I wanted to say hello again and I hope your doing ok. Its funny...lastnight I asked my Mom to come visit me in a dream...Im glad you saw Clint, Im just sorry he didn't appear in better health.

Kris S: I saw your tag on Angel's blog and stopped by 'coz I don't think I've ever visited before. What a beautiful son Clint was, Carol...bless your heart. It was hard enough losing my mom...can't imagine the pain in losing a child. Cast your cares upon Him for He careth for you. Please stop by and get acquainted...I will be back by.

FrenchAdamFan: Hi ! I've just discovered yours and Clint's journal. Clint was a beautiful boy. You can be proud with him.Take care.

Leah: hello there. just dropping by

Light and Love to you

Angel: We had those kind of birds in a humongous flock a few days ago...It is kind of eerie, isn't it?! As always, viewing the pics on your journal and reading of Clint is very enjoyable. Of course, I come here to learn of how you're doing, also... Bless you, Carol!

Alaine: oh...and as for Clint's age. You really did have him for 31 years if you count your pregnancy :)

Alaine: I don't think you need to let go. Moving on with life is much more important than letting go and I think you are doing just fine. I still cry for my best friend that I lost 15 years ago. It wouldn't be human to "let go". And you know you will see Clint again. And I think in Heaven Clint is not feeling time as we do so he isn't sad at all. You have the rest of Eternity to be with your baby boy. ((((carol))))

jan: Carol, you don't have to let go. You are still going through the grieving process. I lost my sister two years ago and can still sit down and bawl because I still miss her so much . It doesn't hurt as bad now, but like you the memories of things she did, mannerisms and her favorite things still bring the heavy feeling of loss to my heart. With time we will experience less pain and more joy in the memories.

eric: Dear friend, come and leave a blessing for

Moonie: Was out journal jumping and came across yours. Very nice place you have here and I really enjoyed learning more about you and the fam. I'll return when I can spend a bit more time. Take care and have a good day.

jr: sorry you had a bad day

sparkle: Just in the neighbourhood and saying hello on the way

Angel: continued... doctrine says otherwise. She was the "child"of our hearts and we take comfort in knowing that we will see her again one day. I'll be back again soon...I love reading your entries and seeing the pics of Clint!

Angel: Your entry of 8/21 answered some questions for me, too, Carol. I am a born-again Christian, though I have strayed off the course a few times. I don't always agree with what some doctrines (churches) teach, not even my own, but I feel that whatever causes us to be more hopeful is okay. (Within the Christian perspective, of course.) For instance, when we lost our beloved furchild, our pastor told us that animals do not go to Heaven. We are comforted in thinking she is there, even though our church

Angel:

I'm always thinking of you, Carol, and keeping you in my prayers. I need your prayers now, too, for some physical problems I'm having. Tests coming up this Tuesday... Take care, my friend, and I'll see you again soon.

eric: Hope it's well!

Aidan: I was just out blog hopping and had to say hello. I hope that this finds you doing well!

bravezila:

Sharry: I followed your link in Carol's Cute Freebies yahoo group and i am glad i did. You are a very eloquent person and you and your son touched my heart and made me weep. I hope you are doing alright, you are in my heart and my thoughts.

RAINBOW: Hi Carol, My son died (suddenly) 2 1/2 years ago. I have a link on my Journal where I wrote about my feelings when I first heard that he was killed. Please stop by. I also have a fireworks display.

May 10, 2008

9:05 PM

A New Year in the Life and Times of Carol

I finally got back and did some sewing today for the first time in several days. I’m trying to make some smaller bibs for PRS after the director informed me they now have plenty of the larger size and asked if I had a newborn size. Since I don’t have a newborn to check for sizing, I did four that are smaller than the ones I’ve been sending so we shall see if that suits. I do have a smaller size yet, but I’ll see her response to these first.
The grandson of the lady from church came this afternoon and picked up the chair. Yippeee dooo…. Now I won’t be piling stuff on that space any more!

Linda had one present in my birthday box that I was supposed to open last so I save it until after dinner last night. It was this lovely diamond teardrop pendant and I can wear the diamond accent earrings Ellen gave me for Christmas with it. When I think about necklaces and birthdays and Mother’s Day, I recall the last Mother’s Day Clint was with us. That also happened to be my birthday as happens every so many years. Linda sent me a ladybug necklace that year. I can still picture me wearing a black and white striped scoop neck sweater with the ladybug necklace and Clint with all his stuffed animals piled around him in his recliner. You could barely find us in the picture amidst all the stuffed animals!
Now I want to see if I can finish knitting the hoodie by time Barbara and I go to Knitting Guild next Wednesday night. Actually, I suppose I should confirm that we are going. The alarm is set for 6:30 in the morning so I’m off to knit on a sleeve.

In spite of all appearances to the contrary, God has a plan for this bankrupt world…this earth of ours, he still wants it as a theater for his grace and glorious direction. - Helmut Thielicke (1908-1986)