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Keianna: Hello! I would like to say sorry to hear about the lost of your son. I want to thank you for blogging about your journey...it gives people like me a new, fresh perspective on what life is really about. Have a great week.
emie: just hopping around hope ul have a wonderful weekend. care to change links? thank u
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Chopper: I opened up your Journal because of the title. We recently lost a family member. It was especially good to read all the poems, one liners, and scriptures at the end of you blogs. Made me feel good.......take care
Dee: Wishing you a very Safe & Happy Easter weekend!
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CFC: Hello, I'm blog hopping to introduce my new blog, "Christian Fun in California." I have visited your blog quite a bit...if you have a moment, stop by and visit my new blog. God Bless!!!
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Keeper: Trotted over to wish you a great day!
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Blake: You know what song I love right now - "MMMBop" by Hanson. best vid on YouTube!
felix: do not forget visit my blog
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Sally Ferguson: Merry Christmas and blessings for the New Year!
Blake: We may NOT understand why things happen to us, or the reason behined it ALL. We live here on earth seeing both good things and bad things, but ALL of it is in Gods hands, he is in control... we need to just have faith in His plans.
morangi: Pole Sana
Clarisse: Hi Carol! The boxes and question marks are gone! Yeah, it was a coding prob so I heard. Thanks for updating me. Wanna exchange links?
Kerri: Hi, I was just doing some surfing. It is neat that you have a pattern you designed published. I haven't gotten knitting yet, but I do crochet. On my journal, the post before the present one has pictures of my last two afghans. I guess I need to find a baby afghan since two nieces are expecting now.
Claire: thanks for dropping by. i have question marks everywhere , all over my posts. and you have them too. at least that's what i see from where i am. i wonder why... my other site: http://coffeeanyone.braverjournal.com has it too
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nn: hi, nice blog you got here, care to exchange link?
Ancestral Paths: Hi-blog hopping-like your site & "House" too. He's like a pitbull, he never gives up! Care to ex-links? Have a great weekend.
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shierylssi: hi, dropping by here.hope we can xchange links.thank you
Blake: Just blog hopping.... I look forward to the new journey!
Garf: hi there
Sally Ferguson: Wishing you blessings at Easter!
Storm: It is so good to be able to read your blog again, just returned from Africa. Come by and check out my site ...
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Heart: happy valentines day
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Garf: care to exchange link?
Rev. Handy: Just passing by to say hello and God Bless...
Kim: Hi, was just surfing through blogs. Your blogs are absolutely amazing and inspirational.
Joanne Troppello: Hi. Just blog hopping. I like your blog site. God bless, Joanne
june: Hello, Your journal is inspirational and i am glad i found it.sending hugs June x
sparkle: Today I am visiting the neighborhood and dropping off warm wishes to say have an awesome moment and week ahead and to remember you are special and important person to this world
naturalskeptic: just one more quick tag to let you know that i read your sons webpage and my heart and prayers go out to you and your family!
naturalskeptic: i tried to leave a comment and this is my 3rd attempt at leaving a tag so we'll see! have a good day!
Lutchi : nice blog you got here...Visit me at my blog when u have time. TC
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corina: thanks for stopping by. If I were "hanging" in there anymore - I'd be a monkey! God Bless~
corina: I hope 2007 be's much kinder to you...May it be a year of blessing for you.
Brandon Doyle: Just out blog surfing. :)
sparkle: I am around the neighbourhood today with new years wishes as I travel bravejournal today so am Wishing you and yours wisdom and all greatest 2007 and beyond
Carol: I really enjoyed your site and thoughtful entries. May God bless you this New Year and beyond.
Angel: Happy New Year to you and yours!
Angel: Stopping in to wish you and yours a very Merry Christmas, Carol! I sure hope your power is on again soon. I've been following the news of the situation. Take care and God bless you, my friend.
Angel: Happy Thanksgiving, Carol!! I love Extreme Makeover Home Edition and I usually boo-hoo through everyone of them!
diane: What a touching blog. I am sorry for your loss, hope Bill feels better soon.
sparkle: have a blessed weekend
Meagan: I hope you had a good weekend!
Vivian: Hello again. Hope you had a nice Monday!
Vivian: I love the centerpiece. Nice work!! stopped over to say hello...
Meagan: I came across your journal, so I thought I'd stop to say hello. You have a beautiful place here. I hope you have a great week.
Cheryl: WOW, Hawaii would be nice. Haven't ever been there yet. Have fun.
corina: hi...It's been ages since I dropped by. Just checkin' in to see how u r doing. Anyway, Have a great week. God Bless!
Josh Nay (Jay Roberts): Well that's great. Let me know how that goes or if you need help or something.
Josh Nay (Jay Roberts): Ugh! Just had my tag board spammed! Well, I was really touched by your journal. Here's a tag of friendship for you!
Melody: hi there. i enjoyed reading your journal. hope you have a nice day!
beth: hey i left you a comment and signd your beautifull sons guest book. i was deeply touched by it.
RAINBOW: Just had my tagboard spammed...and had a bad restaurant experience. Other than that, things are going well!
Angie: Hi, just blog hopping, thought I'd stop by and say HELLO. Hope you're having a good day ~ Love Angie
Barb: Just stopping by to wish you a Blessed Easter.
sis: Hello, just read Clint's journal. It's a nice memorial. I have a memorial journal for my brother. He was killed in a car wreck on 5/1/05. He was 34. I pasted a poem from Clint's journal into mine. Thanks.
Angie: Hi Carol, thanks for your visit and tag, hope you're having a good day ~Angie~
Angie: What a beautiful journal you have here, I'll be back for sure. Hope your week is a good one ~ Angie ~
juicenjack: Hello was hopping around and stumbled on to here. Enjoyed reading your and Clint's journal. I babysat and worked with kids and adults that had similar problems to Clint. God Bless and hope you have a wonderful weekend.
Storm: just dropping by to check on you. Finally have a new computer so I can cyberhop better
Angel: Happy Valentine's Day, Carol!!
Marie Elliott: Sending love your way,
Storm: Hi Diane. Was finally able to get out cyberwalking again and wanted to check on you and see what you were up to ...
Nathalie: Bouncin around figured I'd drop in and say Hello...Hope you had a GRRRREAT Weekend!
Angel: HAPPY NEW YEAR, CAROL!!
Barb: Carol, just stopping by to wish you a Merry Christmas. Thoughts of our loved will hopefully be with us and comfort us at this time. Take care.
GirlyGurl: Hey there, just here checking out your journal. Have a nice day!
Storm: Hi Carol, I get a "lump in my chest" reading your thoughts that you share .. thanks for reminding us how life is a
Angel: I was posting an entry at the time you came over to my journal. Please take a second look...
Angel: No entry for today...As if I really expected there to be. Just want to let you know, Carol, that I've thought about you and about Clint today. A year ago - yes, the time has seemed to have flown by. You were (are!) a special mother and Clint, of course, was special, as well. God's special gift to all of us. You're in my prayers today.
inhishands: God bless you in all that you do! Grace and love be with you always! (God Is Love)
Angel: I haven't been here in a while - life gets in the way... But when I am here, I read and read and absolutely love viewing the pictures you put up! I wish I had known Clint personally, yet I feel a special closeness with him and with you through your journal. Thank you for giving so many the opportunity to come to know Clint as you did!
sara: Hi there :)
Storm: Thank you so much for sharing your love and pain of your journey
CyberMagic: Just blog hopping .
dee: I just surfed in. I read Clint's journal. I'm just heartsick. My thoughts and prayers are with you, I can not imagine the loss you & your family must feel.I wish for you a pleasant happy weekend!
Christina: Love and blessings to one from one mother to another... ~ Christina
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December 3, 2008

10:41 PM

Celebrating Clint

     It was one o’clock before I got into bed this morning.  I woke at four but got back to sleep and didn’t wake until 8:30.  I was able to stitch out two more of Nancy’s angels before we dressed and headed off to “celebrate Clint” on this fourth anniversary of his “homegoing.”  On the way out we passed the UPS truck.  I knew he was delivering my thread order.  We went into Key Center for the mail and came back by the house so I could put the box in the house and then we were on our way.
     It was a nice day.  We had sunshine and it wasn’t all that cold out.  We went to Lennard K’s in Allyn.  We split a salad and mini pizza combo like we used to get for Clint and shared an order of steamed clams.  It didn’t seem like that much food when we ordered, but we brought half of the pizza home and polished that off tonight as a snack.  Then it was over to the park for a walk out on the pier.  Bill took this picture of me standing in front of a sailboat that has been moored there for sometime now.  I’m wearing Clint’s “Montana elk” tee shirt and my new tailgater jacket.

       

     We headed on over to Port Orchard arriving there about 3:25.  The movie time was 3:45 so we stopped off at Joann Fabrics where I looked for some ladybug fabric while Bill went next door to the Dollar Store.  I only found one fabric that I liked but I didn’t have time to get it cut since there was a line at the cutting counter.  I had a 50% coupon so I wandered around thinking what I could buy that would make good use of the savings and I spied a thread rack  The one I have is full and, of course, more thread arrived today although most of that order belongs to Nadine.  So I got the $30 rack for $15 and that was a good deal.
     We met back at the car and discussed whether or not we really wanted to go to the movie or just continue shopping.  I think we both wanted to be on the move doing something as opposed to sitting in the theater.  We drove to another shopping center where I cruised Rochelle’s Fabrics for ladybugs while Bill checked out Sav-a-lot.  No luck for me on the bugs but I got a mini version of the ruler grip I bought a couple of weeks ago.  This should be useful as those smaller square rulers are hard to cut around without the thing moving.  Or maybe that’s just me!  I also bought some black fabric to use with my music jacket.
     I found Bill in Sav-a-Lot.  He was rounding up some more food stuff to take to Tacoma Rescue Mission when he goes into Tacoma tomorrow to the dentist.  From there we went to Wal-mart where again, I had no luck finding ladybug fabric.  I wasn’t happy with the towels I bought there the other day so I got some that are a little thicker to embroider with my seashells.  I also found some small things to put in Linda’s Christmas box. 
     After filling up the gas tank I got Bill to stop by the Dairy Queen so I could get a chocolate/strawberry sundae.  Then he stopped at the grocery store to look for a couple things he hadn’t found in his earlier forays.  I stayed in the car to finish my ice cream but eventually I had to go into the store and warm up!  We made it back home and felt like we did a good job of celebrating Clint. 
     Ann called earlier in the day to wish us well.  Beth emailed this morning and called tonight.  Ellen sent a lovely email in which she said:  Clint would want you to have a good time today. He was a loving child, and if we are alike in some ways, it would be that we both would want you to enjoy life and times. That we remember him with love and faith is all he could have asked. He has that every day. Use this day as a present from him to enjoy in the only way we can. Live, laugh, and LOVE
     Having enjoyed the day as best we could, here we are.  I finshed a hat.  That is only the second one since knit guild last month but I’ve been working on the afghan and the baby sweater.  And the baby sweater is finally finished.  It is the Lee’s Feels-Great Baby Sweater in their 2 year size.  The pattern is by Michele Wyman who passed away from cancer some time back.  Anyway, this was fun to do and I have the kid sized patterns so that I can do one for Reign eventually.  Barbara is still working along on her adult sized version.



      So this day is fading away and I look forward to doing more knitting, quilting and embroidery to give in memory of my precious Clint.  He brought just joy into our lives despite the heartache.  As I’ve said many times, the world was a better place because Clint was here for a time, and I’m a better person because I was Clint’s Mommy.

Moving on after losing a child
     Losing a child has been described as the worst kind of loss anyone could possibly go through, a searing and unspeakable pain. The emotions that accompany a loss of this magnitude is much like plumbing the depths of an abyss, not knowing if one will ever be able to climb out of it one day, unscathed and whole.
     I have found that it is in reaching out to others, in stepping out of the shadow of one's sadness that one is also able to heal. Investing oneself in activities that give meaning to the loss helps alleviate the pain and aids in building a new life that would keep the memory alive and well in our hearts and, I am certain, make our children proud. - Cathy Babao Guballa, October 29th, 2000 Issue © 2000 Philippine Daily Inquirer
 
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